OzoreXS
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Hi guys.
Let me use the forum as my pseudo blog. (just a bit )
I really feel or need that I have to express myself.
Well, Im from Spain. Also live there. Im confined at home since march 13th. Me, wife and our 2 months old baby.
Just like many people around the world in some other short of timeline.
Since then just left home in 3 occasions, pharma+supermaket, for getting goods. Thats all. My wife not even that.
I´m trying to keep my family routines, dispatch my job,... but I dont know why, its becoming toxic. Seriuosly, its killing me inside somehow. Morning-job-lunch-job-more feeding-forums/youtube-sleep. Repeat. Why? Its the same than 31 days ago, but at home!
I feel weird. I really miss my ...liberty? is it?. Its the first time we feel that (my wife agree)
I miss having a walk with my family, go to a field and feel some breeze in my face... having a pint with friends and laugh...I miss the sun!
I miss everything that was unnoticed 31 days ago. How ironic.
On TV (public/normal TV) its corona 24/7. Its really hard to disconnect; maybe its selfish, but mind of one has its limits.
Now Im fighthing anxiety with some happyness pills. Im starting to have the most bizarre post apocaliptic nightmares I ever had.
"Be brave, be patient, stay calm". Its not so easy. I was brave and patient, now I feel fear.
Yesterday, I get to my car to recover an USB cable and stayed there (parked) for 10 minutes, just sitting, listening music. And suddenly I felt like a offender and quickly I went back home. My minds getting broken. I feel like I cant stand this anymore.
But, hey, we are healthy and fine. We are lucky for that!
My baby is whats giving me strength, the punch, to overcome this shit.
You guys too. Im new in the neighbour, but this place is able to draw a smile in my face. Thanks for that.
Advices are welcome.
Dont get me wrong, its just... I feel a bit sad and melancholic atm.
If theres a god, a spirit, an energy or whatever, please, get your ass down here and give a hand ffs xD
If you are still alive, thx for reading!
Let me use the forum as my pseudo blog. (just a bit )
I really feel or need that I have to express myself.
Well, Im from Spain. Also live there. Im confined at home since march 13th. Me, wife and our 2 months old baby.
Just like many people around the world in some other short of timeline.
Since then just left home in 3 occasions, pharma+supermaket, for getting goods. Thats all. My wife not even that.
I´m trying to keep my family routines, dispatch my job,... but I dont know why, its becoming toxic. Seriuosly, its killing me inside somehow. Morning-job-lunch-job-more feeding-forums/youtube-sleep. Repeat. Why? Its the same than 31 days ago, but at home!
I feel weird. I really miss my ...liberty? is it?. Its the first time we feel that (my wife agree)
I miss having a walk with my family, go to a field and feel some breeze in my face... having a pint with friends and laugh...I miss the sun!
I miss everything that was unnoticed 31 days ago. How ironic.
On TV (public/normal TV) its corona 24/7. Its really hard to disconnect; maybe its selfish, but mind of one has its limits.
Now Im fighthing anxiety with some happyness pills. Im starting to have the most bizarre post apocaliptic nightmares I ever had.
"Be brave, be patient, stay calm". Its not so easy. I was brave and patient, now I feel fear.
Yesterday, I get to my car to recover an USB cable and stayed there (parked) for 10 minutes, just sitting, listening music. And suddenly I felt like a offender and quickly I went back home. My minds getting broken. I feel like I cant stand this anymore.
But, hey, we are healthy and fine. We are lucky for that!
My baby is whats giving me strength, the punch, to overcome this shit.
You guys too. Im new in the neighbour, but this place is able to draw a smile in my face. Thanks for that.
Advices are welcome.
Dont get me wrong, its just... I feel a bit sad and melancholic atm.
If theres a god, a spirit, an energy or whatever, please, get your ass down here and give a hand ffs xD
If you are still alive, thx for reading!